Sometimes I think that I have to work harder than most of my fellow stay-at-home moms to enjoy my job. (Or maybe we’re all in the same boat??) The pages of my journals tell that story all too well: I document my efforts to cherish my children while they’re small; I wax poetic about the up sides of staying home; I admit that maybe life as a stay-at-home mom doesn’t come as naturally to me as I had always assumed it would.
I DO love and cherish my children. I find myself overflowing with love—particularly when they’re asleep. 🙂 But I think we can all agree that staying home with small children can kick you in the pants. It can be isolating if you don’t actively fight to get out and socialize. I often fondly remember the days when I was “college smart.” Now, despite numerous hand washings, I feel like the smell of my baby’s stinky diapers clings to my hands. (I think—I hope—that it is in my head!)
As the new year approaches, I am vacillating between accepting that “surviving with a little grace” is an adequate goal or reaching higher for one like “learning to thrive while staying home.” I suppose my goal always has been to learn to thrive (which, incidentally, is a big part of why I keep this blog), but I also realize some weeks, merely making it is okay too.
Thanks for being part of my journey! Are you thriving or surviving?